January 24
NSD
Dinner: Chicken Korma (crockpot)
I think MH found this recipe for the Instant Pot but it utilized the "slow cooker" function. So... Why not just put it in the crockpot then?
It was *amazing*. Only complaint: Not enough leftovers.
I wasn't feeling great physically on this morning, and then I found out a woman I used to work with had passed away. She was 86. I had worked with her until she was probably about 80. By far not the oldest person I have worked with. But anyway, she passed away several months ago and I just found out.
I ended up having more of a "curled up in the fetal position" kind of day.
I just brings up a lot, the mess of illness and death that punctuated the end of that job. Plus also brings up memories of our other co-worker that we lost to brain cancer 10 years ago.
I snapped out of it mid afternoon and did some laundry. Had better intentions but then didn't really do much else. I ended up downloading some ebooks from the library. One I could only get in audiobook format which is not my preference. I think probably too distracting to listen to while driving, but was nice to change up my mid-day walk break. I can maybe get into walking and audiobooks.
It has overall been so incredibly quiet and peaceful. Really not holding my breath, but maybe feeling some optimism that I am getting out from under this black cloud. It feels... weird.
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January 25
Groceries: $322
MH allowance: $15 (movie?)
Dinner: Spaghetti Pie
MH did a big grocery run. Once every two weeks, until things settle. Maybe one more two-week run, will see. Or I guess, probably would wait two weeks but then can probably do a 10-day run at that point.
I almost didn't even check the credit card, because it's like been over 10 days since MH bought anything? But it did cross my mind to check and I did see that MH had spent $15, probably on a movie.
Work was strangely calm and peaceful today. I have some big deadlines and there's never enough hours in the day. But... When everything isn't constantly a disaster or an emergency and I can actually have peaceful nights and weekends... My stress level is around a zero right now. It's a noticeable weird shift, that I noted in my last post. It just feels... weird. But good. GOOD weird!
I did enter all my February income/bills in my electronic check register. I have a good idea how the credit cards will sort out, with grocery spending done for the month. Thankfully, we seemed to squeak by without any over-spending. MH did receive a $100 check from my parents (for his birthday) which helped with his extra spending earlier in the month.
I don't know what the odds are that MH's unemployment will sort out. Now there's headlines that people have to pay back unemployment in our state!? UGH! (People who did everything the state said, but the state wasn't following Federal rules?). I mention because am not holding my breath on any unemployment income this year and am very much in one-income mode. Which is why I am happy that we navigated January spending so easily.