Weird. I think that I REALLY underestimate the amount of exercise I do with 2 small kids - LOL. All the heavy lifting and such. I got in such a funk during tax season where I would just go home and veg, I felt like I did so much sitting which in general is not what I do - I am generally quite active. So I figure I must be in horrible shape and the usual 5-pounds from tax season arrived. I generally gain a few pounds Jan - April, and then work it off the rest of the year. So it goes, except I have a good round 20 pregancy pounds too - 10 from each baby.
I worked off an additional 10 I gained from whacked out hormones and PPD after my second was born, which is great, but I still have 10 pounds from him all the same - which is depressing. If I was toned and in shape though, would be better. I don't get too hung up on weight. But I am horribly horribly out of shape and not eating great either - that is the bad.

Well, so I thought.

I went to aerobics the other night and it seriously kciked my butt. I mean it was intense, and last week I Was sore all week (only went once). But since the next morning I haven't felt a pain. Really weird. Not sore at all. Anyway, I was trying to tone it down and go slow as not to hurt myself, but I am thinking maybe tonight I should just push myself more. LOL. I expected more pain. All I Can figure is I am in better shape than I thought.

I would really like to get out and walk more too. Been so busy and also the weather has been horrid (HOT). Which reminds me the pool will open in a couple of weeks too. Will have to do more walking and swimming in the coming months. I worked off those last 10 pounds by walking mostly. As only now I can bring myself to spend so much time away from my family working out. But it has been so WONDERFUL just to do something for myself. The ladies joked that they didn't want to come to class this weekend because it was Mother's Day. But I feel different. I would consider it a gift to go to class - hehe.

We've had the a/c running the last couple of days. Ugh. IT is BAD news when it gets this hot so early on. I am not looking forward to another Sacramento summer. BAck home the weather rarely wavered below 60 or above 80 year-round. I miss it terribly. I really want to get a convertible one of these days but I Can't say I would really get much use of it. Out of the question in the 100 degree heat. Oh yeah I see people driving on the hottest days with the tops down but I think they must be insane. LOL. Back home I drove with the top down almost every day of the year. So sometimes I wonder if it is really worth it - if I would really use it. The weather this year has been particularly extreme, for the area.

Oh anyway, I was watching Work Out last night (reality show) and a girl around my weight anyway (not necessarily my shape or size overall) had lost 10 pounds and the difference was amazing. That is the kind of motivation I need. If 10 pounds would transform my body that drastically, then I am sold. I just haven't been very motivated. I thought my cruise would motivate me more, eh. Before I could eat whatever I want and exercise and be good to go. This is not the case anymore. Old age and hormones working against me. I have been eating in, eating dh's dinners, working out. Hopefully I will show some progress, but I probably need to do more. #1 is cut back the soda. Dh insisted on buying me full cans and 2-litres out of saving money. I Was doing so good drinking a little can every day, but since the switch and stress of tax season I have spiraled to 1-2 full cans a day, maybe more. I am so annoyed with dh - I kept telling him the expense meant nothing compared to my health and I would work on cutting back further in the summer. Now I am eons behind. I am doing better, slowly but surely. I guess my first goal should be to get down to 1 can a day, and less from there. I Can't do things cold turkley - it just doesn't work for me - slow and steady always wins the race. Anyway, I keep telling my brain to stop drinking so much soda, probably my only real obstacle at this point as I am doing so much better than usual on everything else. But it is really a psychologoical crutch. Food is my issue and always will be. I have been eating better but I have replaced it all with soda - soda feels good! LOL. But I did read JEffrey said he drank 1 glass of water whenever he craved soda. Would not deny the soda, he would just have to drink a glass of water first, and then he would want the soda less. I will have to try that. Going back to smaller cans would help too. I feel bad wasting things and so basically I would never throw out a soda. I got those toppers but they don't work so well in keeping the carbonation in. I am trying 2 litres but they disappear real fast - but might be the way to go. Oh really I should just go out and buy myself some small cans. Dh will just never understand. IT may be crazy and psychologicical but all I know is it works!! The cost is nothing compared to my happiness, health and peace of mind. But this is my big true battle right now. Hopefully a few weeks in aerobics though and I will start to see a difference and get motivated.